im getting lazy to go
and train and safra.
haiz.
its not that i dont
wanna do well.
i understand the work that
needs to be done for myself
to get to where i wanna go.
but its getting tiring and
unproductive when i keep
getting bad vibes from going
to training.
then when i go home i end up
too tired or pissed to mug.
either way its a waste of time.
shrug.
maybe everyone is just becoming
irritable at the same time.
dunno la.
all of a sudden,
the aim to do well,
the aim to get into ntt,
the aim that everyone in sch team
can win together seems very distant,
and untouchable.
since when i have become so negative
i have ceased to understand.
i just need to hang on i guess.
through this period.
hais.
